Blogfolk, I'm away.
Normal service will probably resume on my return, when I choose to ignore the eve of the new year too. In the meantime, happy Winter solstice, Christmas, whatever it is you celebrate. Or don't. I'll be here drinking wine by the fire and reading old books. Be well, and don't eat too much.
Monday, December 25, 2006
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Surprisingly, things are really not Like They Used To Be
1. Look, bloggers, at the mess that is Soho and especially the once-upon-a-time gay microcosm that is Old Compton Street; as if the weekly hen parties from South Bromley weren’t enough to cope with! At this time of year the place is heaving with herds of very straight, very clueless people out on their Christmas work do, gawking at the gay homosexuals like they’re in a gay safari. And the jokes they crack! Are not funny.
My Special lady Friend and I didn’t stick around for too long; it was a clear, crisp night, perfect for walking away from the very full bars.
2. this cat of mine is a disgrace, a renegade, a taint on the name of felines everywhere. Or is my education?
-Pancho, look, here’s bits of real chicken for you.
-Miaow.
-What, is it too hot still?
-Miaow!
-Not enough salt?
-Miaow..
-It needs to be cut into smaller bits?
-Miaow.
-What do you mean, sushi? You’ve never even seen sushi.
-Miaoow!
-Fine. I’m taking the remote control away from you., that’s too much daytime tv, missy. And anyway, what happened to the gratitude cats owed their masters?
-Miaow!
- I’m not making it up at all. In my days, cats dreamt of sucking on a dry chicken bone. So eat up.
- Miaow!
- I know you were abandoned at birth….Sure, I’ll hold it up for you so that you don’t get your whiskers dirty.
1. Look, bloggers, at the mess that is Soho and especially the once-upon-a-time gay microcosm that is Old Compton Street; as if the weekly hen parties from South Bromley weren’t enough to cope with! At this time of year the place is heaving with herds of very straight, very clueless people out on their Christmas work do, gawking at the gay homosexuals like they’re in a gay safari. And the jokes they crack! Are not funny.
My Special lady Friend and I didn’t stick around for too long; it was a clear, crisp night, perfect for walking away from the very full bars.
2. this cat of mine is a disgrace, a renegade, a taint on the name of felines everywhere. Or is my education?
-Pancho, look, here’s bits of real chicken for you.
-Miaow.
-What, is it too hot still?
-Miaow!
-Not enough salt?
-Miaow..
-It needs to be cut into smaller bits?
-Miaow.
-What do you mean, sushi? You’ve never even seen sushi.
-Miaoow!
-Fine. I’m taking the remote control away from you., that’s too much daytime tv, missy. And anyway, what happened to the gratitude cats owed their masters?
-Miaow!
- I’m not making it up at all. In my days, cats dreamt of sucking on a dry chicken bone. So eat up.
- Miaow!
- I know you were abandoned at birth….Sure, I’ll hold it up for you so that you don’t get your whiskers dirty.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
And gratuitous violence for all
1. Bloggers, in this season of good will and general cheer I had the sudden impulse to make a list of all the people I’ve had, throughout my not so short, not so eventful life, reasons to wish bad, bad things. Just to take it all down a notch.
2. To the random guys in the street who ever had the nerve to come up to me and call me ugly, just because they could without fear of retaliation; just because they were male and that in a certain brand of French youth culture, it’s a very cool thing to do, to those I wish explosive, uncontainable, volcanic diarrhoea in a public space. On a white pants day.
3. To the bloke who got out his rifle and shot at the random passing car that day of March 1979, I wish spontaneous combustion. What an aim you had, though, or did you miss? We couldn’t tell, the bullet went neatly in though the back window and out again right in front of my face. Shame my mother had the poise to drive away as fast as she could, or you would have had the chance to have another go.
4. To the man who pushed us into his car and sped along the empty road saying he was going to kill us, just for kicks, I wish that your worse nightmare comes true and that your hair falls out overnight; and I wonder, what took my mother so long to divorce you?
5. I think I might be too nice.
6. Bloggers, did you notice? I don’t wish any of my exes any harm.
1. Bloggers, in this season of good will and general cheer I had the sudden impulse to make a list of all the people I’ve had, throughout my not so short, not so eventful life, reasons to wish bad, bad things. Just to take it all down a notch.
2. To the random guys in the street who ever had the nerve to come up to me and call me ugly, just because they could without fear of retaliation; just because they were male and that in a certain brand of French youth culture, it’s a very cool thing to do, to those I wish explosive, uncontainable, volcanic diarrhoea in a public space. On a white pants day.
3. To the bloke who got out his rifle and shot at the random passing car that day of March 1979, I wish spontaneous combustion. What an aim you had, though, or did you miss? We couldn’t tell, the bullet went neatly in though the back window and out again right in front of my face. Shame my mother had the poise to drive away as fast as she could, or you would have had the chance to have another go.
4. To the man who pushed us into his car and sped along the empty road saying he was going to kill us, just for kicks, I wish that your worse nightmare comes true and that your hair falls out overnight; and I wonder, what took my mother so long to divorce you?
5. I think I might be too nice.
6. Bloggers, did you notice? I don’t wish any of my exes any harm.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
W is for…
1.Bloggers, strangely, I don’t even mind it’s nearly Christmas. I’m in such low spirits that all it means to me is the end of work and the warm womb of my mother’s house to stay in, silent, for a week.
2. There will be a three-coloured, big-pawed cat for company and a pile of logs for the fireplace, woolly socks and old books from my teenager years to read again. In the early evenings, my mother will appear out of her ‘painting studio’ with a bottle of Alsatian wine and say: let’s not let it get us down.
3. It is everything, it’s Christmas that we don’t celebrate, it’s the sum of losses and anxieties about what remains. It is what we face everyday and the fact that it could be worse. It is the loneliness that we both live in; she because she feels she has failed to build a proper family, I because I have been so afraid to fail too that I chose to not have one at all.
4. We’ll drink by the fire, wishing it could be colder and that it would snow, or if it is, that it would snow harder, for the whole night; for added womb effect. It’s so satisfying when the airport has to close down and the buses no longer run! The best times are when cars can’t drive up our road, then it gets truly quiet.
5. One morning, clad like the Michelin man, we’ll walk up a mountain. It’ll hurt my lungs because I’m not used to it anymore. I’ll want to enjoy the scenery and be moved to tears but I’ll be so worried about not enjoying it enough that I won’t, really.
6. As usual I’ll get back to London the day before New Year’s eve, with neither plans, nor wanting to make any, and I’ll relish letting myself into an empty house. The candy of feeling sorry for myself! It is my tradition. This year, the Special Lady Friend situation isn’t looking too good, you see. It’s likely to be my fault. Added sweet bitterness to the candy.
7. I’m still young, have four limbs, eyes that see, a job and a place to live, and five different sets of bed linen, damnit.
1.Bloggers, strangely, I don’t even mind it’s nearly Christmas. I’m in such low spirits that all it means to me is the end of work and the warm womb of my mother’s house to stay in, silent, for a week.
2. There will be a three-coloured, big-pawed cat for company and a pile of logs for the fireplace, woolly socks and old books from my teenager years to read again. In the early evenings, my mother will appear out of her ‘painting studio’ with a bottle of Alsatian wine and say: let’s not let it get us down.
3. It is everything, it’s Christmas that we don’t celebrate, it’s the sum of losses and anxieties about what remains. It is what we face everyday and the fact that it could be worse. It is the loneliness that we both live in; she because she feels she has failed to build a proper family, I because I have been so afraid to fail too that I chose to not have one at all.
4. We’ll drink by the fire, wishing it could be colder and that it would snow, or if it is, that it would snow harder, for the whole night; for added womb effect. It’s so satisfying when the airport has to close down and the buses no longer run! The best times are when cars can’t drive up our road, then it gets truly quiet.
5. One morning, clad like the Michelin man, we’ll walk up a mountain. It’ll hurt my lungs because I’m not used to it anymore. I’ll want to enjoy the scenery and be moved to tears but I’ll be so worried about not enjoying it enough that I won’t, really.
6. As usual I’ll get back to London the day before New Year’s eve, with neither plans, nor wanting to make any, and I’ll relish letting myself into an empty house. The candy of feeling sorry for myself! It is my tradition. This year, the Special Lady Friend situation isn’t looking too good, you see. It’s likely to be my fault. Added sweet bitterness to the candy.
7. I’m still young, have four limbs, eyes that see, a job and a place to live, and five different sets of bed linen, damnit.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Today
Pale blue: time spent working in a grumpy, tired mood.
Pale blue: time spent working in a grumpy, tired mood.
Grey: time spent looking forward to going home and collapsing.
Dark blue: time spent wishing I could have five minutes off to go out and get myself a cup of coffee.
Green: time spent sitting on the staircase back home, contemplating sleeping with my boots on just because it’s such a fuss to take them off. But then if I did that I would not be wearing clean socks tomorrow, which is simply unthinkable.
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