Like a vaccine, only different

When the missing+her gets too much
When I’m on an obsession loop
There is one thing that makes me snap out of it
I get this out:

Take a look;
It’s an ugly picture.

It was taken one afternoon in April
It’s hours long.
The caption reads [selfish / cruel] and [humiliation / loneliness]
as well as all sorts of other self-pitying words I could find.
But most importantly
It’s almost a caricature of her.
All the traits are real
Only magnified.

This picture - it really is ugly.
I look at it some more.

Just looking at it makes me freeze, makes me want to barf.
Some more
There
Still missing her?
Missing the caricature?
Didn’t think so.

This ugly picture is my trump card.
On the back it has a capital R, for Remember, prodigue! esto memor.

Now do us all a favour, go back to bed and shut up.

(Good night. Sorry about the self-indulgent stream of consciousness.)